Ten steps back

Do you ever feel like you are doing so good in life and on the right track and then BAM! Life bitch slaps you back to reality? I have always been AWFUL with money. Always. But after seeing how horrible my husband was with money and for sure he was horrible, (I’ll get there in a minute) I knew one of us had to get our shit together for sure! So the start of this, well the start of our relationship to be more specific. I bought him tires for his car, because he was out of work for like 2 months after breaking his hand and I’m not the kind of woman to not help my man. Especially not a good one like him. This story might make you think otherwise, but I assure you he is a good guy, just doesn’t make good decisions sometimes. Just like every other human being. Anyway, after I bought him tires. I found out he had been spending MONEY like lots of MONEY on a game he was playing on his phone. I was so pissed, like what the fuck, I’m here worrying about your well being and you’re spending stupid money on a game. It was over $900 people! I digress. So, how many years later is it? Oh yeah, 4. Well, I have been so awesome with money until the last year and I tell you everything is showing it. Not because we haven’t had the money to pay anything, but because my brain has literally felt like it has been spinning in circles! Not my head, just my brain. Like unable to focus on one thing, at all. To the point where I’m so mentally exhausted I can’t do anything. At all! So, I have been lacking on paying bills. Only thing getting paid are things that are on auto, or our cars and did I mention I have been shopping. Like a lot. My poor husband, but you know what’s great? Is he understands, I had to be put on mood stabilizers to control my impulsiveness. I’m doing much better, but medication always take a while to fully work. It’s hard and especially when I feel like I cant have emotions otherwise people think I’m not taking my medication. Maybe I’m just crazy ok?!?